In my younger days the voice of a friend became a familiar mantra. “If in doubt, do something, even if it makes a mess.” The idea that I heartedly embraced with everything that I had centered on the idea that action was critical important. While I still believe that it is, I also believe that one needs to be smart. Today I find myself modifying the mantra to start out differently. “If in doubt, have a think.” Being still can trump action.
I would love to continue my writings with some insightful bit of wisdom that speaks to finding the balance between going into action based on instinct and sitting until an intelligent idea shapes the next step. Yesterday was, for me a classic reminder of what tension feels like as I tried to wait for wisdom. Everything within me wanted to put things in motion. My frustration grew with the passing of time. Soon I caught myself arguing with myself. The voice in my head was loud, demanding, and insistent.
“Why don’t you do something? How long are you going to sit there with your hands folded in your lap?” (Psalm 74.11)
As I look back, I can see two different perspectives. The first reflects the proof that reflection is often a good foundation to build on. Lessons, reminders, and whispers all help one see the larger story. If one listens with an open mind, alternatives appear where you were sure dead ends were.
The second is a reflection I struggle to admit exists. My frustration on action does not end with myself. I want others to act in accordance to my agenda, even if it is not in their best interests. I am looking for God to fulfill my desires, regardless of what the Divine plan might be.
In the silence of a new day, it is easier to let Life whisper. My hope and desire is that I muster the courage to let this practice extend to the full day. So much more is possible when we let Divinity reach into our lives.