The day unfolded for many like any other. The sun rose, or at least everyone thought it did because it was light. The hazy pollution would go on to become the highest pollution day yet on record. The measurements for the day were going to go right off the chart! There were suggestions that the pollution outside reflected what was about to unfold inside the company. We were on the verge of taking on taking on the biggest challenge in corporate memory.
The build-up to any moment can be dramatic. Tensions begin to mount, from external forces as well as from within. Uncertainty plays out in the form of accusations and short tempers. Doubts become fact.
As I reflected last night, my mind drifted to other major events in recent years. Each was life testing in its way. The uncertainties were paralyzing. The doubts were overwhelming obstacles based in fact. The fears drove me to isolation. With each, I could see the downside with blinding clarity.
Yet, in the calm of this evening, I look back at today and those days knowing that I am alive. I survived to act. I live to take on another challenge.
My perspective after the fact was quite different then it was before the event. It seems like an old paradox playing out again and then again and then again. The paradox came out of an accusation. The musings of the investigator captures my view before and after.
“The accusers came at him from all sides, but their accusations turned out to be nothing more than arguments about their religion and a dead man named Jesus, who the prisoner claimed was alive.” (Acts 25.18)
The questions today are more than the change in perspective. The question is one of learning. Am I willing to walk in faith when I struggle with my doubts? Will I take the right step when everything is uncertain? Can I be courageous even as I struggle with my fears?
I have the chance to make a difference. It was always here. Hope calls for action.