It is hard to describe how tired I am. Mentally, I am beyond overwhelmed. Physically, I am at my limits. I know I have two more days before rest will come. Today will be another twenty plus hour day. Tomorrow will likely be its equal. To the greater power in life my cry is one of desperation; “Hurry and help me; I want some wide-open space in my life!” (Psalm 38.22)
As I remember one of Life’s lessons from running, in my fatigue I can use pain and tiredness as motivators to be ruthlessly compassionate, truth-filled, and positive. The effort to take action, make decision are defined in the reality that it takes more muscles to frown than smile.
The only moment is the one at hand. I cannot change the past. I can use it to make the present better. The past can shape the present but that is all. Freedom only exists in the now. The future is distractive. Whatever it will be will emerge from the present. Until it arrives, we are left where we began, here, now.
The obvious answer to the question is usually the right one. If one wants to change one’s answer to the question at hand, the time to prepare and shape was yesterday. What we feed our souls shapes and defines our values and priorities. It also determines the way we see what we see, the framework that determines how our minds see, hear, and feel.
I know my tiredness is going to grow. I also know that I love the situation I am in. My goal is to make a difference, be smart and grow smarter, and survive to live another day. Today’s dawn brings an extraordinary opportunity. I will have another tomorrow, but today is unique. In it, windows will come and go. My prayer is that I use my fatigue to see others and more, I always stay in the present, and I trust the way Life continues to teach.
There will be a time to rest. Today’s siren is a call to action.