It is interesting to watch what happens when people feel they are backed into a corner. There seems to be two extremes. Neither has, from my observation, any correlation to her/his normal behavior. They could be meek and quiet on most occasions. Yet, when boxed, they will stand and fight without regard for their safety or future. It is just as likely that they could be strong and bullish on normal days. In a fight, they quietly drift off to a corner and watch.
With age, I find myself consistently coming back to a question and a view.
First, what do we hold so true that we are willing to risk our life for “it”? Is there something we will defend? What if we were asked to refute a long held belief? Is there a limit that we would not cross?
Is there something in our lives that we will confront? Is there anything that would make us behave like Paul? At the risk of his life, “Paul stood his ground. ‘With all respect, Festus, Your Honor, I’m not crazy. I’m both accurate and sane in what I’m saying.’” (Acts 26.25)
Second, why do we, myself included, need to be put against the wall so that we will take a stand? Is there any reason we cannot consistently be consistent?
The combination has forced me to take a hard look in the mirror. I have passionate views. They often shift with time. They move with new convictions. As I examine each, I wonder what I hold so true that I would be willing to die for “it”. I know it includes family and close friends, but what else?
Tomorrow will be a day of remembrance where I am. There will be tears and yearning for peace. For some, it will be a day of sadness. For others, it will be a day of thanksgiving.
I wonder what it will be for me. I hope that I embrace the courage others have shown before me. I hope that I can make a difference as they already have.