The monitor delivered a relaxed message of promise. The sign at the counter and absence of anyone in sight said closed; I would not be helped. Both were clear. Each was direct. I did not know how confused I was, and yet I was. A whimsical example that “Life’s a corkscrew that can’t be straightened, a minus that won’t add up.” (Ecclesiastes 1:15)
My call to action remains in place. I may not understand where I am. At times, my fears, uncertainties, and doubts are overwhelming. Nothing adds up! I find myself distracted, caught up in the moments. I feel I am being forced into battle. When I take a breath, creating a pause in my life, I hear life’s whispers calling me to action. I do not hear I need to worry. There are no calls to muster my defence. Gently and without waiver, I hear the reminder of God’s children, each a family member. I am called to nurture and support their response to Divinity’s embrace.
My response is, at times, the opposite of my calling. The best that I can say about these moments is that they are opportunities for me to learn. In my awareness of lost opportunities, flawed intent, and misdirected action, I have an invitation to step into the quietness with Divinity’s embrace. In this space, for me each morning as my starting place, I am restored and recreated from the inside out. It is not always easy. Mixed in with the times I find myself in tears, horrified by my words and actions, there are moments of celebration. In both, Divinity’s unconditional embrace remains steady. She has her mission, and I have mine.
The important question and decision at each moment is, what will I do? It is a universal question. The past likes to try and dominate my thoughts, demanding justice and accountability. Divinity invites me to look beyond, remember our relationship, and to hear her call to my heart. When I embrace each moment as a gift, I find myself out in the open, ready to respond.
