“Shake them [us] up God! Show them how silly they look.” Psalm 9.20
Yesterday, several times during the day but mostly over dinner, I realized how silly my failures look to others. These failings were funny, seemingly stupid in reflection, and have no real purpose. These failings are the little things in life, saying volumes to ourselves, giving indications to those around us.
Before you get critical, always remember everything seems clear from a distance. Ethics are far more black and white when the issues do not apply to you. Decisions are simple to make when there is no personal stake involved. Then there are the silly things rattling around in the back of your closet and mine.
Yesterday’s discovery and today’s directions is my motivation for change. I discovered that my motivation is often along two lines – I do not want to do the act or I don’t think the act is good for me. Either rationale is fine in itself, however the rationale does not build a foundation where future decisions are automatic.
Sitting with two good friends and enjoying the love they share is always a treat. Reflecting on my reasons for remaining faithful to Cherry, I found that I take the steps because of my desire to have a true, open, and honest relationship. Yes, a decision to be unfaithful is not something I “want” to do. Yes, a decision to be faithful is because I believe the decision is good for me. However, the driving force is not the negatives rather the positives. I love my wife and want to continue the quest to grow in relationship to her.
Am I faithful in my God relationship? I discovered a part of my life driven, determined, by the negative. God drivers are grace, love, and the positive desire to be true to His self. My drivers can be the same.
What if I made my life decisions by the desire of what I want? What if I focus my path on the light, not just avoiding the darkness? Think of the possibilities!
