As we caught up on the developments in our lives, our conversation naturally drifted back to shared memories. It was interesting to hear a familiar story from a very different perspective. Through his eyes I could see more of the story. Confusing actions now had context and intent. Answers that had no meaning took shape in the larger story. Viewpoints shifted and changed.
“If I only knew.”
“Yes, the same is true for me. I wonder if I would have been able to hear it. If I did, what would I have done differently?”
“I have no idea. I wonder as well, for you and for me.”
Yesterday I caught myself firing arrows. I was and I am certain that I know the larger story. The arrows are accurate assessments of the situation. They are informed, balanced, and delivered without malice. Even as I make these statements, I wonder. Do I really know the whole story? Have I listened with my heart or just my mind?
As the questions formed in my mind, the certainty of my aim with the arrows drifted to the point of silence. I know what I know. I also know that I am missing big pieces of the larger story. I am not sure if I can reach out to those who know, however I am certain that up until this point I have not spent time trying.
Today’s reflection sits in the shadow of a writer’s plea. “My accusers – make them lose face. Those out to get me – make them look.” (Psalm 71.13) His words sounds like the whisper of my arrow’s intended victim. I owe him and myself at least this much! I can look. I can listen. We are all part of a bigger story.
It is good to sit in silence, considering the past and reflecting on the present. Each moment is an opportunity to give life to one’s highest aspirations, values, and priorities. We do not need to define life by our arrows. We have the opportunity to heal, striving to make it better.
