The two lanes circled the island. I remember, or at least thought I remembered, vehicles traveling in both directions. As I rode, my certainty morphed into uncertain confusion. I could see arrows and informative signs on both sides of the street. The uncertainty came from how faded arrows were on one side. This uncertainty was reinforced by the way the delivery motorcycles rode, freely acting as if this was a one-way road, not two ways. As I came to certain sections, everything was consistent except for the two arrows in the asphalt, both pointing in the same direction.
Life can be confusing. The reality of feeling as if I do not know should not surprise me, yet it does. I expect to know. I think I should be certain. The reality that I do not feel either at times lets doubt find its place within me. Decisions, relationships, and even beliefs are seen through the shadows of fear and uncertainties.
Navigating the unknowns of the moment is easier when one is open to guidance. It is in the moments where I am certain that my fears, uncertainties, and doubts are the strongest. Life reminds me that I cannot see, hear, and understand everything. What was true yesterday seems different today. Old reminders play out in modern situations. Remembering the old observation is helpful. “There was a time not so long ago when you were on the outs with God. But then the Jews slammed the door on him, and things opened up for you.” (Romans 11.30)
Divinity in all her forms, family, friends, and messengers of wisdom, does not want us to fail. Divinity and her manifestations are looking to help us be at our best. The goal is our restoration. It is when we are filled with confident love, kindness, and care that we are at our best. The arrows in our lives are pointing us to beauty and our divine family. At times, the arrows seem confusing. As I experience unconditional gifts of acceptance, kindness, and compassion, I rediscover my lane to Divinity’s heart.
