Do you know what know as well as what you don’t? I find myself rediscovering who and what I am. It would seem that my abilities of being self-aware are bounded by my willingness to have the foundations to my inflated self-esteem challenged. Nothing about this is right or wrong, it just is.
In the course of open, candid personal reflection, serious learning and growth occurs. It is as if by admitting that I am not sure that I open myself to opportunities to see something greater than I had ever imagined. When I look backwards I can see repeated examples where I found myself buried in my weakness shortly followed by rapid periods of growth.
History is full of stories of people admitting their lack of knowledge, skill, or ability followed by something that they could never imagine. One example is the Biblical story of Jesus meeting a woman of another culture at a well. In the midst of their multi-layered conversation the woman showed an amazing level of self awareness. “The woman said, ‘I don't know about that. I do know that the Messiah is coming. When he arrives, we'll get the whole story.’” (John 4.25)
I wonder what life would be like if everyday began with a reminder about what I know and what I don’t. I don’t know what the day will bring. I am blind to what might be. I am unaware to the needs of the people I will meet. I may have an idea of what I think is important, but what would be best for the community? I think I know how to win, but is this winning?
I find that the “best” days are the ones that I was open and aware that possibilities exist in every moment. Today I am resolved to begin with a fresh slate. Let the community shape my priorities! Walk with eyes open to all that might be. Listen for music being made in every type of circumstance. In this awareness I know God walks with me. Everything is available to us.
