I am sure I was just as obvious to my parents as the girls are to me. Their sly smile, sheepish grin, and crazy questions that point, scream, and paint in vivid colors the very thing that they are hoping to hide. Every time this happens there are a series of questions flashing across my mind.
Do they think I am blind?
Do they believe that I am slow and losing any sense of deduction?
Do they think I am stupid?
The questions are somewhat unfair. I know in my case things did not go according to any logical pattern. I did not think about the other person’s perspective. I was blind to how clearly my actions indicated my motive and intent. While respecting their thought process and powers of observation, I thought I was clever.
And then it happens; every once in awhile I miss the plot. The ploy is successful. The ruse takes me on a different direction. I fall for the feint. Sometime later I may discover what really happened, but not always.
I find myself continuing to behave this way with God. There are times that God does not know what is best for me so I need to take over. Challenges and opportunities come across my path that I know God could not anticipate, so now is the time to take advantage of things! I believe that there are things in life that need experiencing so this is the moment.
This logic confirms that I am blind, slow, losing my sense of deduction, and am stupid. The thoughts are a living example that I do not believe God is on my side. I am not alone, however, the fact is that “even hell holds no secrets from God – do you think he can’t read human hearts?” (Proverbs 15.11)
God can read our hearts; in fact He does it constantly and knows us intimately. With this knowledge He works to bring the reality of His love, compassion, and acceptance to the entry of our hearts. What happens next is up to us.
