Each time I witness a puffed up, fluffy, over the top demonstration, there were several recently, I am taken back to Charlie. Charlie is a short hair chihuahua with Doberman markings. What makes her unusual is that she grew up under the guidance and nurture of a Rhodesian ridgeback. As a result, Charlie lives and breathes as if she is a ridgeback with one difference. When her bluff and bravado are called, she backs down and walks away as if nothing has happened. Her 1.5 kilos are no match for anything or anyone.
As I reflect on the humor that can be found in recent performances, I wonder if the participants know the truth. Do they realize they are hollow imitations of the real thing?
Once one has experienced the protection of a Rhodesian ridgeback in her/his prime, one’s view of the breed is forever changed. In my case, I understood the comments of no fear and unconditional commitment. The comment one Psalmist made of God applies to the breed; “With your well-muscled arm and your grip of steel – nobody trifles with you!” (Psalm 89.13) Experience changes everything.
In the same way, once one experience a bluff, one is always looking for a repeat. Even when one has the goods, nobody believes! Recent performances remind me of caricatures. They are fun to watch in a slightly painful, I am embarrassed for them kind of way.
As easy as it is to be critical, I find myself looking in the mirror, sadly remembering moments where I tried to bluff my way through the situation. Beyond being unfair to those around me, I can see how destructive it was for myself. It was as if I was trying to get myself to believe my own fiction! Even as my efforts played out, my heart knew the truth. I wanted to believe but just could not.
Confidence is important to everyone. Grounded, backed-up confidence can be an extraordinary source of energy and courage. Life whispers, reminding me how God and trusted friends continue to be wells of confidence.
