A blunt point was on the table. I was having difficulty grasping the details, however the emotions were easy. Another was being accused. Both sides were playing me in a disposable pawn kind of way. On one hand I understood the accusation. On the other hand, to my knowledge, I had no idea what my colleagues were talking about.
“It is all quite clear.”
Everything in me wanted to scream, “What is clear?” My hold on the conversation was tenuous at best. Whatever was obvious was not for me. Bluntly put, I did not understand.
The hands began to fly, searching for a piece of paper within the stack on the table. With a strong push back from the table, my colleague stood up and headed for his computer.
“I will print you the email that puts things into perspective.”
Until this moment, I thought I had a holistic picture. I assumed that my community had shared the essentials with me. I had no idea what was going to be on the piece of paper.
I do not think anyone is working with malice. Having said that, as I read the old email, noting the dates, knowing I had never seen or heard about this, I knew I was boxed. Old questions resurfaced. The only context that I could use to make sense of it all was old observation and piece of advice.
“So who is lying here? It’s the person who denies that Jesus is the Divine Christ, that’s who.” (1 John 2.22)
As with most moments in life, clarity does not always make a decision easier. Knowing more does not automatically come with courage. Understanding is not automatically linked with boldness.
“So, tell me your view on this.”
“I have never seen this, did not know that this question was on the table, so I have no view. I can only respond to it now. You will have your answer shortly.”
Each moment in life is a gift. Fair or not, kind or not, certain or not, you and I are asked to respond.
