“But if you make a run for God – you won’t regret it!” Psalm 2.12
Going to church is becoming a very emotional experience – maybe normal for some, very unusual for me. Sure, there is always a bit of head knowledge to be found if one is open. Yesterday words focused on hearing God’s voice. By the time I realized that we were in the data-sharing-experience-mode, God’s voice was so very present it was almost hard to focus on the speaker’s voice.
I wish I knew how to share this with you. I know my attempts are a bit like sharing any physical/emotional experience with another – it never quite adds up. Even so, one must try to do the impossible.
Think of your best moments with Carol. I believe that my best moments with Cherry and God come when several different things come together.
I am open to an experience – no agenda or goal – I am just there. I am seeking to share my true self with her – it can be in silence, quiet words, observations, my thoughts – it is my purpose rather than the content. I am living in the love and grace of this one moment in time
When these things come together, it is incredible! Yesterday was like that with God. Present in the moment; open to every experience.
Hearing His voice sing –
“We will run, we will fly, we will be together
We will laugh, we will cry, we will be together”
In that moment, I knew that I wanted that more than anything else in this world. I wanted that for myself, for Cherry, for Carli, for Whitney, for you.
I answered Him –
“Father I come to You, lifting up my hands
In the name of Jesus, by your grace I stand
Just because You love me and I love your Son
I know your favor, unending love”
It may seem that the future is fuzzy, that the road isn’t clear.
There are directions – His words, His love.
Neither of us can earn it or deserve it. God just gives it! Wow.
