Driving out of the apartment building always comes with a moment of confusion about which one of the three traffic instruction signs I should follow. With two stops and a do-not-enter sign, there is a choice on when and where I will decide. My habits usually take over. Yet, I know there is a moment of hesitation and indecision each time I reach the spot where the signs come into full view.
Last night I walked out and paused to try and make more sense of my confusion. As the possible rationale for the traffic instructions came into focus, I began to think of the directions in my life. I have my impressions, teachings from when I was young, and reasons all mixed up in each moment. I wish I could say that my reasoning and decision-making are always consistent. I know this is not my reality. In each moment, I know there is a decision to be made. I will hear the past and present in a heated debate. A choice will be taken. As today begins, I am reflecting on life’s suggestions for my decisions on my direction and choice.
Uncertainty and chaos are a natural part of life. In themselves, there is no reason to be concerned. I know I am not unique. In accepting the realities of the storm, I open myself up to awareness, reasoning, making decisions, and the learning process that follows.
Signs offer direction and milestones. However, this is the limit of what they can do. What follows is up to the person in the arena. S/he decides. Spiritually, I think of the signs and subjects that have been flagged over time. They include “baptismal instructions; laying on of hands; resurrection of the dead; eternal judgment.” (Hebrews 6.2). Subjects, reflections, each a sign.
Complacency is not the answer. Last night’s inspection was a revelation. I think I understand the intent of the signs. Two are meant for me as I exit. The other is for individuals coming from a different direction.
It is time to get behind the wheel.
