It has been a long day. Early meetings, a training session in the gym, several stressful conversations, and some intense work had taken their collective toll. The reality of not taking enough water and skipping two or was it three meals was not helping. I had survived but knew there was more that needed my attention.
“Are you ok.”
“I think so.”
“Really?”
As I thought about my possible responses and what I suspected I would see if I was willing to look in the mirror, I knew the truthful answer; “No”.
My advice is anyone in the spot I was with the “no” now that I can see it in hindsight is the following.
Look at what is not what you want it to be. I wanted to see someone with the energy and drive to accomplish more not the reality of being “half-starved and parched with thirst, staggering and stumbling, on the brink of exhaustion.” (Psalm 107.5)
Listen to trusted voices. You may not like what s/he says. You may not want to hear what s/he says. Personal likes and wants need to take a back seat. Especially when one is tired, under assault, and over committed, one needs to listen to words of compassion and wisdom.
Take time to reflect and understand. If you struggle on these two points, as I was in this conversation, then accept Wisdom’s words on faith.
In this case the recommended actions were to put down my pen, close my computer, and head to a warm shower and bed. I was at the end of what I could do without being renewed through sleep, reflection, and meditation. As I write on the other side of this process, I am thankful that I have wise voices in my life. I highly recommend that everyone know who these voices are for them. If they do not know, then I hear a call to go on a quest of discovery. Divinity speaks individually during each in every day; in our discovery we travel a path of healing, discovery, and living.
