I have come to appreciate that there is a distinct difference between different types of fear. On one extreme there is the fear that comes from uncertainty and unknowing. At the other end of the spectrum is the fear that arises when one is aware of potential danger. In the former, with emotions driven by uncertainty and various views of potential danger, one’s heart rate increases, senses move into high alert, and the body tightens and prepares to defend itself from all possible dangers. In short, one emotionally and physically gets ready for battle! Nothing inside or out is left to chance.
In contrast, when one is aware of possible danger or threats, preparation is set in motion. Depending on likelihood and timing, the process can be methodical and meticulous or rapid and focused on what is core. Especially with reflection and training, I find that one’s heart rate slows, the senses sharpen in balance with each other, and time comes into focus. Priorities drive the sequence and intensity that one puts into each step.
While the final outcome of both extremes is out of one’s control, in one case fear is driven by one’s ability to do anything about it (self centered preservation) while the other is driven by a certainty that there are things that can and should be done given the context of events.
As I think of the Psalmist advice, “Fear nothing – not wild wolves in the night, not flying arrows in the day,” (Psalm 91.5) I realize that the difference lies in my vision and ways of seeing what I see.
When I know that I belong to a community, especially one that respects the other and looks to work towards mutual happiness, safety, and affirming that each belongs, I see differently.
As I realize that I have others on my side, trusting and knowing with certainty that each is committed to the best in my life, everything changes.
When I am confident that someone greater is here, I realize that I am free to do what I can.
