The evening light was fading fast. As I looked, a young deer quietly walked, nibbling on the grass, eyes alert, curious, and yet distant. The innocence of youth was painted in the pixelated sight, amplified by the fleeting sense that it would all disappear with the coming darkness. As I considered Bambi’s aura of innocence, I found myself wondering about my own.
My aspirations are not always reflected in my action. This is not a commentary or self-condemnation. It is simply a reflection that when I map the two, “My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.” (Romans 7.20) In being aware, I create my own opportunity for understanding, learning, and growth.
Life is defined by how we grow. It is by using the experiences of things gone wrong for learning that I find my best opportunities for a better step forward. I, like others, tend to celebrate success with the assumption that the results were a direct outcome of wise choices, discipline, and courage. Candidly, luck often plays an important role! When I acknowledge the help of others, I begin to see that much of the success in my life has nothing to do with my actions. In this reality, I find humbleness knocking at my door, inviting me to take advantage of what life offers.
Yesterday’s pain, angst, and fears do not need to define the moment that is now. I do not think Bambi was burdened by yesterday. Bambi’s calmness radiated, palatable even from where I was standing. From the eyes, posture, and gentle stillness for as long as I watched, I could feel a restoration underway within me. I could hear life’s siren call to quiet my eyes, relax my stance, and simply rest.
Today begins with a sense of innocence and wonder. I feel inspired by the lingering image of Bambi. With hope, a sense of peace, and inspiration, it is time for action. It may not be perfect. It will be compassionately intentional.
