Having strict boundaries on what can and cannot do is not all bad. In my case, this translates, for the moment, into not lifting anything over ten pounds, avoiding situations where the lack of having a predictable balance could put me in danger, and in general taking it easy. I find myself being called into longer periods of silence, reflection, and thought. There is a natural defensive reaction kicking in to suggest I “normally” spend time thinking, yet my reaction speaks to how difficult it can be for anyone to simply let go and “be”.
I find that insights come with periods of thought. I am not sure if this is an all insights, or simply many profound ones, yet I find myself convinced that there is a strong connection between reflection, silence, and insight.
I am not the first to realize the potential that comes from intentional time apart. When “Cornelius said, ‘Four days ago at about this time, midafternoon, I was home praying. Suddenly there was a man right in front of me, flooding the room with light.’” (Acts 10.30) He was telling the story of opening himself up to new possibilities and what can happen.
There is a caveat to insights. We may put ourselves in a position to receive them however insights come with and on their own schedule. They cannot be summoned simply by our will. They cannot be forced into existence. They cannot be manipulated.
I find myself struggling with the next part of insights. Often they apply to my life, an indictment to my traditional thinking. They pull me into a space that is challenging, at times painful, and often filled with sadness. Their truth is sharp, direct, and useful.
Occasionally, we may receive insights that are for others. In my experience, these are exceptional rather than normal. One should always exercise care with insights for others. In my case, what is a priority for me is rarely the same for another. My conviction to the contrary does not alter the truth of this reality.
God invitation is here.
