How I make decision is often warped by rationalization, self-deception, and the constant battle of self versus community. My heart modifies the decision process to fit the outcome I am looking for. My rationale changes to fit the goal. In my heart, especially in the stillness of the night, I know. I also know Divinity knows. There are no secrets.
My body is still relaxed from yesterday’s sauna and what followed. The heat was followed by an evening stroll with a friend and dinner with more friends and great conversations. I realized I was filled with hope. I came into the day wanting to control however Life took over. I forgot an appointment. I got busy with friends. We walked, talked, and shared life. The pace was not what I planned. The timing of everything varied from my expectations. The sequence was wrong. I was not in charge, although it was not without my repeated attempts to put things in order.
As I reflect and realized that “looking at it one way, you could say, ‘Anything goes. Because of God’s immense generosity and grace, we don’t have to dissect and scrutinize every action to see if it will pass muster.’” (1 Corinthians 10.23) I could however I want to understand what happened and why. In a spirit of candor, let me suggest the following as starters.
You and I like to be in control. Divinity and Life have teamed up to offer us an alternative. Have faith, step out, and be in the moment.
As open as we think we are, we want what we want. This often translates into hedging our decisions, manipulating the process of what is unfolding. Life offers us the freedom to act and be in the moment at hand. Life is willing to take care of the process. Our decision to let go does not change anything however it does open us up to the possibility of hearing more.
Life is for living, not for control. Life is an invitation to engage in making a difference. It is there for everyone.
