In my life, I have experienced two kinds of panic. The first usually revolves around a physical situation. Car wrecks, bad outcomes to dangerous events, and sports accidents are the usual examples in my life. With these, oddly enough, I naturally morph into a calm, everything slows down, my best focused and intentional self stands up for the occasion.
The other type of panic is when I can see failure just ahead and my words and actions are not changing the course of the group’s path. The level of panic is amplified when I feel a sense of responsibility in what comes next! Years ago, I thought I would accept that I could not always influence the direction of the group and, as a result, I would learn to let go with grace and a sense of peace. Time has done little to reduce my panic.
As I wrestled recently with a panic situation, I find myself reverting to life lessons with the belief that I must do everything possible with the learnings which are available to me.
Recognizing one’s reaction and the baggage which comes with it is a good thing. In the psalmist’s cry for help, “Hurry with your answer, God! I’m nearly at the end of my rope. Don’t turn away; don’t ignore me! That would be certain death,” (Psalm 143.7) I hear myself being honest, internally and externally.
With recognition, I mentally go through a check list of my emotions and immediate actions. The affirmation of what I thought to be true, helps me see the situation with fresh clarity. Each nuance opens a new door to understanding the whole picture. I may not like it. I may not completely understand the situation or why I am reacting the way I am. However, with each new insight, the greater the chance of responding in a way which is aligned with my priorities and values.
With years, lots of failures, and endless learnings, I still find new opportunities to understand and grow. With my willingness, Life uses panic moments to teach and guide.
