As I caught up with a friend after what seems like a long break, I was struck by the reminders of how slow change is within our lives. More than a decade ago we walk together, exploring options, enjoying each other’s company, and aspiring to make the world around us just a little bit better. In the process, I discovered a lot about myself. I also caught myself smiling at the natural presumptions both of us brought to the moment.
At the stop of my smile list was the natural and confidence way each assumed what was going to unfold in a discussion. We just knew even though the conversation rarely played out according to the script in our minds. We were absolutely sure of what others were thinking and doing. These assumptions meant we came with a pre-made script of questions and discussion points. Even with the experience of constantly being surprised, our confidence remained high.
The part B that always seem to follow was the effort to asked for something. The irony with the ask is that frequently an action had already been taken that was bigger and better than the ask! I would like to say we had learned from that experience. Conversations suggest we might have grown a bit, but not as much as one would think or hope.
A writer left us with a thought that many embrace; “Be generous with me and I’ll live a full life; not for a minute will I take my eyes off your road.” (Psalm 119.17)
With my ongoing presumptions, I read it with curiosity. What have I imagined will come from the generosity? Where is the evidence that the generosity is contingent on my loyalty and attention?
As a new day start I am left with the same question that came up in my mind when we last spoke; would I react differently if I could see everything prepared and on the table. The only “if” is my willingness to pick it up. The gift was never about me, it was simply for me.
