Reality

Knowing, seeing, and understanding the truth of a given situation is never as simple as it sounds.  Are we willing to see, really see the details of the truth in a given situation?  Is there something that we cannot accept as truth no matter how obvious, clear, and factual it may be to someone else?  Does knowing and seeing automatically bring understanding?  Do I want clarity in my life?
 
My travel schedule, work environment, and frequent distance from the family often extracts far more from my soul than I willingly give.  Chaos appears to be far more normal than not.  Waking up to a dawn with very little sense of being in community has become a norm.  As much as I want to see, know, and understand my life, frequently I do not.  As a result, I am constantly reflecting, trying to find my bearing, and reconnect with those I love.  In this context, the perspective on “what” is happening in others is very clear!
 
The currents, forces, and desires that drive us all are clear when looking in from another perspective.  The weaknesses that prevent are clear.  The mistakes that haunt cannot hide.  Even the feeble attempts to set a new course are clear in their context and worth.  The reality of my brother and sister is clear why my own life swirls in the fog.
 
I wonder if I really want to know the truth of my life.  God introduces my day with the specifics; “I'll go over, detail by detail, all your ‘righteous’ attempts at religion, and expose the absurdity of it all.”  (Isaiah 57.12)  The expose of the reality of my life is there, just waiting for me to listen and understand.  Yet I wake, walk, and worry, willingly ignorant of the truth of my life.
 
The fear I find myself holding onto this morning is this; what will God do with the truth of my ignorance?  The full reality includes God’s statement that follows the offer.  “I already knew and know the truth.  You are my child.  You are my beloved.”