“We all arrive at your doorstep sooner or later, loaded with guilt, our sins too much for us – but you get rid of them once and for all.” Psalm 65.3
Today, after a small lifetime, I will be with family, my family. The thought of being together carries lots of emotions; love, peace, togetherness, completeness, frustration, anxiety, hope, anticipation, and guilt. For a father to live away from his best friend and daughters is to live a life incomplete. The surface can flow smoothly, the soul suffers with the knowledge of precious time lost, missed conversations, and opportunities than can and will never repeat themselves. I long to be together yet I carry a guilt that will always be with me.
My walk with God follows a similar path. Paraphrasing a friend, my heart cries Jesus, Jesus yet I carry the guilt of lost opportunities and time away from God. What will it be like? Will we be family again? Will they accept me as I am? The passion of my heart is to be a father, guide, and mentor. The passion of my soul is to give all that I am so that they might be.
God cares about you and I along even stronger lines. God’s greatest desire is to love and accept you as you are. God’s passion is to be a father, guide, and mentor in every aspect of your being. God gives all so that we can be. God knows we will drown in guilt and so he waits.
We all arrive at some point if we choose. This morning I sit and wait, knowing the family delay is yet a few more hours. Today it is mechanical problems, on another day my walks away from cause will be the source. I find myself returning more frequently as I see the Father’s face more clearly.
I wonder; will your pride, insecurity or stubbornness delay your arrival? I know you really want to meet God, I just hope you realize what can delay your time together. God loves you so very much.
