“At day’s end I’m ready for sound sleep, for you, God, have put my life back together.” Psalm 4.8
After three semi-sleepless nights filled with cold sweats and bones that ache, my body is ready for a sound sleep. After four semi-sleepless nights wondering if I will fully commit my heart to God, my soul is ready for a sound sleep.
After a bit of food and a hot mineral salt and oil bath, I paused to end the day reflecting with God;
Letting God speak to me through His word. Listening for His voice in worship songs. Making sure I check my emails for any loose family questions or notes of love. Everything part of the evening routine to say goodnight to those I love.
I can almost hear your mind talking.
“Sounds like a strange evening to me,” you muse. “Perhaps you need to get a life,” the gentle smile tells me there is no harm in the statement.
“Ah, but I have a life I replied. I know who I am and I have comfort with this moment.”
The conversation drifts on to the fun things this moment can bring. There are so many things that we can do. We have so many opportunities each day to make a difference for someone else. Maybe they will appreciate the difference, maybe not. Does it really matter?
Tonight my questions do not have any desiring to fade away –
A friend wants to know if I have a word from God for them? I wonder. “Let God take that one,” says the Spirit.
Will I ever get better? “Does it matter?” questions the voice.
Will I sleep tonight? “I always love you,” assures my Dad.
Tonight I worry about the deliverables tomorrow. “Those are my problems, why should they be yours?” whispers the voice.
Tonight I reflect on the moments of grace that came my way today, moments that touch and nurtured. “I love you,” is the lullaby echoing through my dreams. And so I sleep knowing that God is taking care of you and me.
