“When my heart whispered, “Seek God,” my whole being replied, “I’m seeking him!” Don’t hide from me now!” Psalm 27.8
There are days, moments really, where I know I am sitting in God’s presence. There are times when I am confident that I am following God’s will. I have had decision points in my life where I know God lead. Then there are the other times.
Today I wake to face a God who I am sure loves me unconditionally. Today I want God to be the centerpiece of my life. Reflecting on my immediate past, I wonder if I lived life yesterday centered on him. I worry about my focus, my words and conversations. Did I hit the mark? Did people who were around me see the God I love?
What is the purpose of knowing with confidence and carrying doubt? David often expresses both emotions in the same breath. Seek! I am seeking! Be there God!
Yesterday I shared my evening with a friend who describes himself as “evil.” In many ways, he is an extremely self-centered person. However, he does care deeply about the welfare and happiness of people around him. In our conversations, I see the contrast and remember Jesus’ observation that no good comes except from the Father. I find a kind heart and I want to let God be seen. However, did I?
I want God. I want everything God wants to offer in my life. I am willing to do whatever He asks. I continue to give God permission to change whatever needs changing in my life. Still there are moments when I run as far away from God as my legs will carry! I find myself hiding in the corner.
When I read again David’s Psalm, I find peace. David found himself in this loop repeatedly in his life. Falling into the loop is human, the question is what does one do when they discover themselves away from God?
Seek His face. Rediscover His creativity. Let His grace overwhelm and overcome.
Look, focus, know, and pursue!
