Trust is a state of relationship with comes through a combination of one-sided decisions and experience. I often feel it more than I describe it. Trust often begins with a decision or realization that one has gifted it to another. While it is often fragile at the start, it can grow and strengthen with shared experience. When tested, the tempering process with break or make it resilient.
The reminder of role trust plays in our relationships was highlighted in a difficult multi-party conversation. It had been a challenging day for some, week for others. The tiredness was evident on several faces. Voices told a story each initially tried to conceal. In the end, everything lay on the table, raw, fragile, and vulnerable.
Fortunately, there is enough experience between us that the conversation will continue after a break. With the strengths each brings, we also know we need the other to be successful. I am confident we can and will work through this to embrace something we could not individually reach on our own.
Life likes to remind me that I am not divine. It may seem obvious to others, however at times my behavior suggests otherwise. In the soft morning light, I know I cannot do it alone. My failures and short comings are harsh reminders if I am willing to see them. I need others to bring what I do not have within. Candidly, I lack the energy, wisdom, and resolve. Even if I had these, I would still not have what is required! Knowing one’s limitations can be a doorway to endless possibilities.
As I wake, I realize there is a choice waiting for me to make. Will I trust? Trust love and compassion? Trust relationships? Trust in the help from others?
On this day, my answer is a resounding “yes!”
More than sitting back and trusting something will come, “I look to you, heaven-dwelling God, look up to you for help.” (Psalm 123.1) I will intentionally act with love and compassion. I will be in relationship. In uncertainty and fear, I will trust.
