Does one really want to know the truth?
I say “yes”. In the darkness of the night, I am not so sure. Even when I know, following the good and bad, right and wrong in truth is difficult. Knowing a location is not legal for parking does not mean that I will not park there. Understanding that it is unhealthy to go without sleep does not mean I will not compromise myself to deliver on my commitment or indulge in a conversation late into the night with friends.
There is a part of everyone’s self that wants to know the truth, especially if it feels good. It is when truth feels bad or when it hurts, that avoidance, rationalization, and denial come out to play.
In an act of talking to myself more than anyone else, let me suggest the following.
Seeing truth is an intentional act that takes courage, resilience, and fortitude. A recent child’s temper tantrum was a blunt reminder that seeing and hearing the truth is unpleasant. As the painful scream of defiance echoed in the shopping mall, it was clear that this young boy did not want to see or hear the truth. He wanted what he wanted! To any parent, his intent was to ensure the truth did not get become a barrier to what he wanted to see and do.
Seeing and understanding truth are different steps. The first is and awareness that often comes from being nearby. The second is an embrace of what one knows to be accurate statement of fact or principle. Wearing a motorcycle helmet that is old or has been dropped defeats the purpose of being as safe as possible, yet many of us do just that. Embracing truth means “I’d never have any regrets in comparing my life with your [divine] counsel.” (Psalm 119.6)
Two frequent enemies of truth are desire and self. We know better even when we do not. We want even when we know if will not be helpful or healthy to fulfil that want.
I hope truth wins the day.
