Windows

I started on the adventure of my life in the summer of 2005. I wonder how I would have responded then if I knew what I know now.  I know I would have struggled with serious fears, uncertainties, and doubts. I hope I would have engaged the family in the decision process.  At the time the opportunity seems clear, simple, and direct.  I jumped into the opportunity without fully realizing what I was doing.  Even in hindsight, I am not sure those offering me the opportunity knew anymore than I did at the time. 
Now that I am on the journey, I find myself filled with sadness and elation.  I am caught in the realization of the sacrifices that I have asked others to make on my behalf, especially the girls.  I wish I could have pursued the vision and been more present than I have been.  I have taken something from them that cannot be replaced, except in the fullness of time.  Their support has been integral to my continued ability to take on the challenge and opportunity. 
Even in the complexity of the journey, I find myself energized and filled with purpose.  I have the opportunity to make a real difference.  I can deliver hope.  I can be a messenger of opportunity.  I can reach out to others with compassion.  In the midst of it all, despite the turmoil and chaos, I can choose. 
Ironically, I find myself hearing God’s call more clearly in the din and noise.  It is a Word that comes to your life and mine.  “I set him up as a witness to the nations, made him a prince and leader of the nations, and now I'm doing it to you: You'll summon nations you've never heard of, and nations who've never heard of you will come running to you because of me, your God, because The Holy of Israel has honored you.”  (Isaiah 55.4, 5)
The moment of decision, in the summer of 2005 and now is ours.  A fresh window comes with the dawn, for you and me.