“I’m ready now to worship, so ready. I thank you, God – you’re so good.” Psalm 54.6
Sunday night I experienced in a fresh way what worshiping God is like. Worship was up close and personal, raw, exposed, with a heart confronted by the reality of God. As I left, I could sense the fulfillment and satisfaction, my thirst for God satisfied for the moment with a lingering excitement for my next encounter with the supreme. I left with a desire to give the experience away to everyone I know, sharing this glimpse into who God is and what God does.
With reflection, I see frequent mistakes where I drifted away from God. Clearly, there is no way one could use my life as a model for others to follow, except maybe in my recognition of failures. I continue to find myself in an attitude of true and honest remorse. Remorse for failing in the small crucial events that could show God to others. Contrition in my own struggle to develop my priorities, instead of letting God work his through me.
As I reflect, I also see miracles at every corner! So many amazing wins that people credit to me. I know I am not the author. I honestly do not deserve the admiration. The credit is nice, especially when I know it is all God. God moving in people’s lives, working his grace, his acceptance, and his love. As I watch God’s moves, I find myself in awe. Yesterday the awe hit home because I watched again, and then again, and another again, the shock in other people’s eyes as they reacted to God’s events.
How does one respond when they realize how much God loves and is involved? What does one do with the information?
Could it be that God is working with each of us all the time and we rarely realize it? What would happen if we were open to God’s presence? Would we find him beside us so frequently others who saw him with us might call him a friend?