The morning dawned dull and gray. The trees sat motionless and the birds were virtually silent. The solemn realization of yesterday slowly came back to my awareness. Two revolving thoughts keep circling above my thoughts.
“Is there anything that you would do differently now that you know the outcome?”
“What am I supposed to do today and in the future?”
Sitting in a courtroom always drives me to reflection. I wonder about choices made and opportunities lost. Looking at life in black and white forces one to see things from a different view. Did I realize and accept responsibility for my moments of pure selfishness? Has anything really changed? Do I want to know how far my poor choices moved through the lives of people special to God? Am I willing or able to look at the past through the eyes of another? Does this include the court’s eyes? Can I muster enough courage to look at life like God does?
I know the warning. “For jealousy detonates rage in a cheated husband; wild for revenge, he won’t make allowances. Nothing you say or pay will make it all right; neither bribes nor reason will satisfy him.” (Proverbs 6.34,35)
The last question is key; looking at life as God does.
With God, I see my blackness in color. I understand the impact of my self-god and I am horrified. The key comes at this moment, because I do not stop here! I find unlimited love and mercy prepared just for me and another pool just for you. I discover a universe with a mission to restore you and I along with anyone who accepts the offer to our reserved seats next to God. We are God’s beloved, his chosen children and friends.
Given God’s gift to you and me, what is next? What do we do with today? Is there something for tomorrow? These are the questions of each morning. Regardless of how we dither, we do make a choice; for or against God. Today I choose new beginnings and everything God offers! Come; join me.