When I was in the third grade I found myself trying to play, get ahead in school, and be a participating member of the family with hearing in only one ear. The challenge was twofold. First, nobody was aware that I was limited in this area and, as a result, did not give me the chance to work around the obstacle or explain when things happened. Second, nobody seemed to care about the why, how, or could we do something about the hearing problem.
In hindsight, it is easy to understand the latter. My hearing up to then had always been fine. The change in hearing was gradual in nature. There was no obvious external factor involved. Finally, it is natural for an energetic boy to avoid school, answering his mother’s calls, and not listen when it does not fit what he wants to do.
Eventually the problem was recognized, diagnosed, and a remedy applied.
I still remember the question. “Can you hear Madame Insight raising her voice?” (Proverbs 8.1)
My answer was “no!” I did not know how to explain it, I just did not hear.
When was the last time you heard God talking to you? Can you recall knowing that God listened to your explanation of anything?
I find myself denying what I feel is true in my heart. Unless the circumstances are right, I will never admit had often or long it goes between knowing with certainty that God and I are having a conversation. A couple of suggestions:
First, acknowledge to yourself, others, and most importantly God that you want to hear God’s voice. If the desire to hear is urgent, say so!
Second, begin the process of knocking off the blocks that prevent you from hearing. In the past it was earwax covering my eardrum. Today, it is assumptions on my part as to what voice God takes or when it must happen.
Third, begin reading the Psalms, quietly and alone. Listen for your voice in David’s cry. Be astonished at God’s reply. God is here, listening, sharing, and talking.