“If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.” Psalm 34.17
Little did I know when I woke up that this would be a day stretching on forever. My body ached, my nose remembered the cold that left two days before, missed deadlines loomed at every corner, and work peers didn’t seem to understand deadlines.
As the day progressed I found myself dropping deeper into a depressive funk. No excuses, life just seemed to close in around me with the absence of family every present and my humanity up front and visible. By 4 o’clock my thoughts were constant pleadings before God to just take this away!
Then a revelation and answer to prayer.
A co-worker had a problem and needed help. She described the situation that continues because a long time ago she did the right thing in full confidence that everything would be kept confidential. Now it is public and her life is at risk. I listened to her and God.
“Yes, I will be happy to provide the waiver. Can I do anything more?”
“No,” came the reply. “Thanks for helping. I’m sure things will be ok in time.”
Her life was totally upside down through no fault of her own. She continued to experience much of the dark side of human behavior; hate, threats, taunts. She fears for the life and her family as well as herself.
Who am I to complain? My life is upside down through much of my own actions! I continue much of the dark side of my own behavior, self-focus, pride, arrogance, and fear. On good days I fear for my life, on bad days I am ignorant of my risk.
Yet when I call out for help, when I think my heart is about to be broken, God is there to help me catch my breath. God guarantees to always be available and will consistently help me refocus and restart.
You have the same God promises no matter who or what you are.