God is looking to confirm who you are and who I am. I have wandered along many paths searching for this confirmation – I realized as I flew home overnight that God has indeed given it to me. I know, with absolute confidence that God wants, above all else, to give you this same confirmation. My own journey may provide some early warning signs so that your journey may be easier.
I have always talked a good game, masking the doubt and trouble brewing within. My motives were good but there was always a “but”. The trouble came when I was separated from my support system. Family, friends, and church provide an anchor of stability that I cling to with a fervor that I work hard at hiding. Without anchors holding me close to the values that I cherish, I walk and pursue paths that take me away from God. I hate the excursions, however my efforts to hold a true course have proven futile!
During the past few months I have come to a fresh realization that the only way I can realize my goal of being in relationship with God is to give up and just “be” with Him. This process is extremely difficult to someone who, as you painfully know, is task and goal driven! My efforts focus on being totally dependent, open and honest (warts and all!) with God – staying in His presence as much as possible.
By giving up and coming to God just to spend time with Him I realized my purpose. I left on my trip wondering if I would let God be there when I really needed it.
My experience this week confirmed God’s mercy and presence with an intensity that I find hard to articulate. God’s confirmation is one of the best hugs I have ever felt. “God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are; Father and children.” (Romans 8.16)
My advice is simple; resting in God is the highest priority of your life.