Sometimes I think I have insights that defy logic. I know the conclusions of another’s words before they are have way through the thought, I am able to anticipate the action of a group before discussion even begins, or I can anticipate a fear, uncertainty, or doubt coming from the heart of someone close to me.
As I become confident I am realizing that I also become proportionally deaf. I stop listening, looking, watching, learning. My insights are often nothing more than simple logic from the evidence past. My conclusions are the natural outcome of historical bias and often at the cost of the facts on the table. My agenda becomes an all-important priority that must be realized so that I can win. In simple terms, I become deaf, dumb, blind, and stupid!
As I reflect on my deafness I realize I often drive myself to act that way in order to solidify the foundation of my confidence. I am not hearing words of assurance, expressions of solidarity, or positive feedback, so I create tangible experiences where I claim success. One of the disturbing parts of my own personal picture is that since I am reasonably subtle in taking care of business there are not many people that would or could see the problem!
I find there are several common assumptions that are questionable.
I know what God would have me do today.
I am confident that I have the solution for ________ (you can fill in the person’s name).
I can articulate God’s position on a wide range of human subjects and specific situations.
I know what God can and will do in your life.
I understand why God did something in my life yesterday.
My confidence is not just at the top principle level; rather I carry no doubts about the details! I am deaf.
There is a solution. Ask the question first. “Does this mean…?” (Romans 11.1) Before answering, wait. Wait and then wait some more. God will answer you. God will give insights. God will, because He loves you unconditionally and completely.