I only met my instructor for two days. Candidly, I am not sure if I would recognize him if we met again. I do not remember his name. I barely remember his voice or features. I do remember his words. His advice burned itself into my mind. It is interesting to see how it plays out, usually in moments of fear. As I ride, I can hear the mantras replaying in my mind. When fear comes up in situations that are familiar to all motorcycle riders, I can hear his advice in slow motion. The link between fear, uncertainty, and his wisdom is strangely tight.
It did not start out that way. Our first meeting was anything but impressive. The first instructor had an emergency and needed to leave. The second instructor came in late, near the end of the first day. His casual demeanor was puzzling. Was he serious? Did he know what he was doing? Were we going to get anything more than the booklet had in it?
Over the next 48 hours, I rediscovered that individuals that have truth do have a lot to give! I know I was not open to learning, yet his stories and experience overwhelmed my doubts. My uncertainty was a hurdle, truth quickly moved beyond that barrier. The casual exterior gave way to someone that was passionate, intense, and confident.
I am not the first one to hesitate in the face of truth. “After she [Lydia] was baptized, along with everyone in her household, she said in a surge of hospitality, ‘If you’re confident that I’m in this with you and believe in the Master truly, come home with me and be my guests.’ We hesitated, but she wouldn’t take no for an answer.” (Acts 16.15) They responded and were richer for the experience.
The Spirit is present, in your life and mine. I know I have fears, uncertainties, and doubts. I also know that Truth is offering to embrace me and be present with me on my journey. I accept this gift in and with my fear.