Last week I thought work was the only thing truly frustrating. People did not hear, people did not meet their deadlines, and conversations that needed to happen did not. I reasoned that my frustration would go away with a good vacation! Experience proves my assumptions are false. My frustration merely shifted to new targets! People are not paying attention while driving, everything seems to happen in slow motion, and everyone seems to have their own agenda. Frustration does not seem to take holidays!
I am often frustrated at myself. Usually the emotion centers my inability to accomplish a goal, play a game, or do something. I cannot get something done that I think is very important. The anger does not stop here; it keeps drifting right into every corner of my life. On reflection, I can see my mind’s conversation within.
“For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes, I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.” (Romans 7.20,21)
I need help, I am frustrated and angry, and I just do not understand! Why can’t I get things straight? Why am I weak, undisciplined, and consistently failing? When will the lessons, knowledge, and experience all tie together and make the difference in my performance?
Something is wrong at my core and yours. We are self-focused, self-centered, and egocentric. I act as if I am god, and then wonder why I fail. The answers to my frustrations and yours are in God. God gives us each a gift that suggests time does not matter, achieving is not important, and compensation is not found in money. God is our answer.