Future

I can remember being terrified at the darkness.  When I close my eyes it doesn’t seem that long ago.  As the darkness consumes any room there is a sense of being trapped in a space not of my choosing.  Images come, uninvited, never welcomed, and seemingly feeding on the absence of light.  Some are very familiar. 
 
In the early days one of the haunting images was my father in full frustration and anger.  The trigger was usually a series of selfish actions on my part.  I earned my fear even before the darkness crept into the scene.  I knew the emotions were deserved.  I also knew I was blowing them out of proportion.  Dad never lost his composure completely, at least not that I can remember.  I also know that my fear never remembered this fact in the middle of the night!  In the cool light of day I recalled the experience and memories of my relationship.  It was then I felt assured, knowing I was loved.  In the darkness it was a very different story.  The images were so real; the uncertainty touching the fringes of being out of control.  It was as if hope had gone on holiday, the future AWOL, and even love absent without explanation.
 
I find myself wondering if I have lost sight of the God I know and love.  Do I recall the Hope that comes with experiencing divinity?  Can I remember the sense of every possibility while resting in a bath of peace?  Will my courage find its foundation in the knowledge of unconditional love?
 
If not then I will “run for rock caves and cliff hideouts to hide from the terror of God, from his dazzling presence, when he assumes his full stature on earth, towering and terrifying.” (Isaiah 2.21)
 
Today is an opportunity to be in the knowledge of all things important.  The future is now.  It is time to see, gather Divine strength, and live.  Darkness will come and go.  Fears, doubts, and uncertainties will strive to overcome.  We have God on and in-side.  Look out!