People, who know who they are, come across to others as powerful. You know who they are almost in the instant you first meet. You can see the confidence in their stride, hear something a bit different in their voice, and sense something as you come into the area of their presence. When you reflect after the first meeting, you usually begin to wonder if you just imagined the experience. However, on the second meeting everything confirms and expands.
It is easy to be jealous or feel inferior. The automatic defensive mechanism in each of us brings out the sharpened darts, which we quickly fire in order to bring them down to our level. We know we should not be doing this, but it is just too natural, easy, and helpful? My thoughts always swirl around the following;
“If I cannot be that assured then they cannot possibly be either.”
I know in my heart that this is rubbish, however I still find myself reacting this way to anyone with a sense of who they are. It does not stop with people! I find myself reacting to God the same way. When God says –
“I [Wisdom] arrived on the scene before Ocean, yes, and even before Springs and Rivers and Lakes. Before Mountains were sculpted and Hills took shape, I was already there, newborn.” (Proverbs 8.24,25)
I know that She is merely stating something to get an edge. I know this is less than smart, probably idiotic even, but I have this need to drag God down to my level.
There is an awesome mystery about how God reacts. As the world falls apart, as I pull and tug at God, trying to drag Him into my space, He extends arms of acceptance and love. There is no request to change, just absolute, total, and complete mercy and something I know as grace. It is in this moment that I know, really know, who and what I am. I am God's child, friend, and most precious.
Knowing this changes everything in everyway. God loves you.