“Ever since you took my hand, I’m on the right way.” Psalm 16.11
Do you remember verbally fighting with your sister? “It is mine!”
“No it is mine!”
“Mine.” “Mine.” “Mine”
I had the same one. I don’t know about yours but mine never ended well. Seems as if we both lost especially when mom or dad got involved.
Thursday I started an adult equivalent. There were reasons. Everyone should have anticipated the triggers. Trust had been broken, embarrassing moments were coming. It was not my fault! It was her fault!
I honestly do not remember all the details. I was mad, they were defensive, and the scene was ugly. In that moment, I took control of every aspect of my life. Will I ever learn?
The good news is that neither corporate parent got involved. The good news is that both of us felt bad and one was still angry enough to say something.
Yesterday we discussed the event, trying to understand what happened. God was there, leading us by the hand, and nobody felt like a loser. What happened?
Thursday nobody appeared to be listening to the other. Yesterday was a good example of dialogue. Thursday it was difficult to understand the real core fear and problem (my fault). Yesterday we searched for understanding and reconciliation. Thursday I was in charge. Yesterday I gave up to God.
Thursday I fought. Thursday I tried to get things right my way. Thursday I failed a friendship.
Friday I gave up. Friday I began the restoration process with a friend. Things will always be different; friendships grow in good times and bad.
How can I learn to let God lead me? Am I focusing on the wrong decision? Should I just “be” in Him, whatever that might mean?
Every lesson learned teaches me I must take charge and be doing. God’s way is for me to rest in Him. Acting in faith means letting God set the pace and work his magic.
If I daily make the right decision, will I continue to fight?
Probably, David did.
