“Listen while I build my case, God, the most honest prayer you’ll ever hear.” Psalm 17.1
Valentine Day is romantic and full of hope and anticipation. People are planning and scheming how to express their best for special people in their lives. When I was young, the focus was on everyone around me. Everybody was in on it, classmates, friends, and parents.
Two days ago one of “my guys” decided he didn’t want to work for the corporation or me any more. Instead of firing, I was able to offer early retirement. The decision was not quick. Rather we spent several weeks in a series of intense and lengthy meetings. In the end, I am haunted with the disconnect between his view of his work and the corporation’s view.
I wonder if I am the same with God.
David was not. David had the gifts of absolute confidence and assurance of forgiveness. David went, once a mistake was past, boldly to God and said check me out, I’m clean.
David ask God to be up front in showing his failings. David wanted the truth.
Do I? Yes!
I want, need, passionately desire to be honest, to know the truth, and to have the blunt conversation with God so I can grow with Him. Without this type of honesty, it will be much longer before my relationship will grow. Without my giving up completely, including all the little things I do not even realize are issues, I will never be able to walk completely in faith.
I want, with everything that I am, to walk in faith. Now! Each and everyday. Always. Forever.
I have come to realize that it is this passion and hope that fuels my life. While alive on earth I will always be human. While my life is I will make mistakes, self center decisions, without faith.
God knows that. God accepts me know even with that knowledge. God gives me grace.
God just won’t let me stay that way. In God, I have a clean slate. You do to.
I am glad.