“Do what’s right for me. But don’t, please don’t, haul me into court; not a person alive would be acquitted there.” Psalm 143.2
It is the story of my life. I almost make it, but not quite. I get 90% of the stretch goal but never an easy 100%. I deserve something or do I? My efforts are worthwhile, or are they? My efforts with some results count for something in the scheme of things, at least this is what I hope.
My position is so, so wrong. I believe my efforts should count, that making progress is important, and any good thing accomplished on my watch should be on the right side of the scales. The facts are quite simple and yet so difficult to accept. I failed before I realized the magnitude of what was at stake. I am self-centered from the core of my being. I lace my acts and decisions with efforts to look better to everyone including myself. I am in it for me, no matter what I might otherwise suggest or even think! Even if I could do a day’s worth of selfless acts there are the other days of my life that are automatically against me. I am doomed if the scales of justice are applied without mercy.
Ah, but God has this thing called mercy. God knows that I cannot stand up in court by myself so outlines a plan that will be successful. He should know. He’s the judge!
David knows what his position is and takes the course of action that you and I need to follow. Admit openly that your case is weak and plead with God to carry out his promise, not simple justice. Pursue God’s promise with aggressive intensity because you know that it is the only hope!
Having God “do what’s right for me” carries risk. God just might believe us! Do you really want to let God change you? Accepting His love into the center of who you are will do that, a mystery of life that you can only experience!