“When I walk into the thick of trouble, [God] keep me alive in the angry turmoil.” Psalm 138.7
Everyday is a fresh battlefield of some kind of description. Work battles, with your boss, associates, groups you work with, or clients is normal fodder in daily living. The natural ways of seeing life and choices differently bring tension and potential conflict into every relationship. This includes spouses, children, best friends, and casual acquaintances. In my experience battles, tension, and potential conflict are different words for trouble.
I am constantly in trouble. At times, one can notch the differing view up to a lack of clear communication, however frequently my motives, opinions, viewpoints, and actions are in serious odds with people I work and live with. If you add on a layer of pressure, things I need to complete along with financial and time constraints, the combination is extremely combustible and dangerous. Frequently I find myself hurting people, especially those I love and care for. I often push people down, with force and carelessness. The picture is painful, and disturbing, especially as I take time to reflect. The damage is usually such that one cannot go back and repair. The only recourse is to help with the healing, if the injured person will let you.
I am learning to do something different. I am increasingly giving up on my abilities to manage the trouble I am in or avoid the damage I naturally cause. I am mentally, physically, and emotionally unable to do anything about my soul. It is not a pretty picture.
I am learning to give my heart and soul to God, relying on Him to keep me alive in the daily angry turmoil. My job is to let go into Him, rest in the Presence. Practically the process is a matter of head priority. Where do I spend my mental energy? Answer – seeking the face of God, listening for His voice.
My advice to you is to give it a shot! I am alive because of God’s new role. The Son is shining on us.
