Often I feel a sense of wonder and loss. Am I were I am supposed to be, doing what I should be doing, and fighting the battles that need to be fought? The need to have a sense of “my” role is there, no matter how much I try to convince myself of something else.
What is your role? What is mine? Is there a single answer that defines both? Is it, can it, be that simple?
I believe that the answer is yes. I also find myself running away from this calling and as I look, I find others running with me.
You and I are called to choose between a god of self and a God of un-self. I know this might sound complex or something that requires mental gymnastics, but it is not that complex. God is, by his own definition, love, mercy, compassion, just, and consistent. His way was challenged and the universe was designated as the jury. We became the stage and participants in the war, which still continues. The not so subtle news is that God has one, because of what Evil did to his innocent Son. All that remains is to play out the hand where the winner is already known. This should be easy, but we keep making it hard!
We want to define rewards and achievements on our own terms. Status, material things, and power are all part of the equation. God looks at un-self measures like reaching out to one who is hurting, helping one in need, or walking along side one who is looking for someone to listen. We define life in terms of compensation, God says that “well-spoken words bring satisfaction; well-done work has its own reward.” (Proverbs 12.14)
Each day I refocus my energies on my role and responsibilities. God offers you and me the unique opportunity to start fresh. Unconditional acceptance, love, and mercy are waiting for us to accept and then freely give away. It is a life journey that has special rewards; peace, happiness, and eternal relationship with the Divine!