One of the joys I have in meeting new people is discovering what tools (abilities) they have. I like to assess and then let myself be surprised with what I discover. I have been surprised with unexpected knowledge of history, musical abilities, and interest in others. If one is open to what might be, the possibilities are endless! One’s quest can also reveal a dark side.
I was surprised the other day when someone I knew revealed a dark side that I had not seen. Usually s/he is kind, considerate, and respectful. Over the years I have come to value the shared insights and observations. I have not always agreed, yet I have found the perspective filled with nuances and textures that gave me a bigger picture. In this conversation, the tone went suddenly black. It was so abrupt that I struggled to respond. The only thing I could think of was an observation made by David centuries ago; “They carry a mouthful of hexes, their tongues spit venom like adders.” (Psalm 10.7)
In the time since our conversation I have explored the revelation and observation in more and more detail. I wonder how I missed this part of the personality. I am still puzzled as to what, if anything I should do with the view that is so different than my own. My thinking has gone along two lines.
We all have a dark side. I saw mine recently and I am still struggling to admit it was really me (it was!). I realize that what I need most is compassion and understanding that lifts me towards the best things in life.
In my darkest moments, my thinking is not always accurate. I believe it is, in those moments, influenced by Evil. I look back with regret, confessing and working to fix what I have wronged.
In today mirror, I am looking for compassion and restoration. I do not want to see darkness. The best cure and preventive measure is compassion and love. Divinity offers both in unlimited supply. It is time to stock up.