“When I was upset and beside myself, you calmed me down and cheered me up.” Psalm 94.19
Yesterday I needed to fire a “silver bullet” at work. Pressures are building, expectations out of control, and I need help! In big corporations, the outcome of any request is never certain. My expectations were near zero, and I thought I was almost prepared for the meeting. At the time for the meeting approached, my last minute preparations failed. Printers did not work, I could not run the reports, analysis was not complete, and everything appeared in disarray. Chaos was the name of the day.
The big event was a nonevent. Everyone present supported the efforts. The questions were pointed and helpful, our dialogue succinct. I walked into the room full of fear; I left sensing I was among friends. As the conversation progressed, I focused my needs, ask for what was required, and left the rest out for further discussion. After all the turmoil in my mind, the meeting was full of good outcomes.
As much as I talk about it and read about it, it is hard to believe that God loves me. I keep trying to make my relationship with God was more complex. In the end, everything points to a simple question: do I know, accept and believe with my heart that God loves me?
When I stop and think about God’s dialogue with me I find the evidence overwhelming. God’s beauty is there for me to see. God’s hand reaches out to me through His children in ways that touch me with grace and love when I do not deserve it (all of the time). God is always present when I need to talk, vent, cry, or laugh.
God is God; I keep trying to change the best into something I understand. God is like art; less is more. God is grace, love, and unconditional acceptance. God loves you. God loves me. It is that simple, nothing more. When you need Him, He is there. When you want Him, He never left. God is.