Facing life can be a major hassle or a great challenge. Either way the question that always comes up is what to do next. Do I continue along the same path as before, take a new course, or sit back and wait for something to happen? Is the answer found in the process of exploring and living, in just doing?
Yesterday was strange; it was as if I was at a crossroads, decision made, but no progress. I know with a deep and strong sense of conviction that I embrace God, what He stands for, how She loves you and me, and the mystery that follows. The knowledge gets me to the intersection and gives me a sense of the right direction. Then what?
“Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out.” (Romans 12.2)
Is this what I really want? Do I want to be different or do I just want to tap into God’s benefit package? Do I look for real peace and happiness or reflect in the confidence that I know what is right and wrong?
Life is a battle for now. Sure, I know the outcome and you can as well – God wins! But, in the interim, the question comes up each day, every hour, with the decision points in between; what do I really do? What do I really want? How passionately do I want to get there?
I know I do not have what it takes! I can exercise all I want, be as disciplined as my sliver of German heritage gives me the strength to be, and I will still fail. I will fail, probably several times a day, but that is not the key. Failure is part of being human. Weakness, and the knowledge of that fact, is crucial in giving me the opportunity to accept and know what God can and will do in my life.
Right now I just embrace in every way I know how.