“I cry out, God, call out; ‘You’re my last chance, my only hope for life!’” Psalm 142.6
Trust in others is not my strong suit. I tend to assume that everyone will let me down at some point, no matter how good and strong our friendship is. I do not think I yet completely view God differently. Is it a requirement? Is this a fatal flaw?
David first expressed this prayer as he hid for his life in a cave. Saul was hot on the chase while David was running for his life straight into God’s arms. It would sugar sweet to say that everything worked out; David’s fear and running ended quickly, Saul saw the futility of his efforts and turned back to God, and everyone lived happily ever after. Just like life today the twists and turns continued without apparent end. David kept running for years, Saul never saw the error of his ways, and the pain of life lived on in individual lives shaping their actions for years to come.
David knew God was his last chance. He tried every alternative he could think of without success. I know his feeling. In my own journey, I continue to explore every possible alternative to God. I do not plan to take the excursions, they just seems to happen. Can I do it on my own? Is there an alternative path to enlightenment? Will a new technique provide a new insight or avenue of strength?
I am convinced that my side journeys are pointless. There is and was only one chance from the beginning. You can find the true picture of God in the Bible. The mystery of the Father, Son, and Spirit is perplexing and nurturing at the same time. God’s open statement of forgiveness and acceptance of everything I will do by what He did at Calvary sill puzzle me for eternity. God’s welcome home party every time I reach out is always fresh and stunning.
Being very dependent on God is not a weakness; it is our one and only strength.