Turning Points

Tomorrow is a turning point.  There is no way to really prepare.  Whatever has been needed to reach this point is complete.  It is as if one just knows the turning point is coming.  You can feel it.  You can sense it.  And it is time.  Before there is too much suspense, let me make it clear.  Tomorrow I formally end my four plus year relationship with one employer and embark into a future that will, with certainty, be different.
 
Life is full of turning points; the moment we realized we were in love, when we understood what love is, and even the points where love expanded beyond anything we had been able to imagine up to that moment in time.  We “turn” as we mature, taking on challenges which would have previously overwhelmed us with complexity, pain, and angst.  We “turn” in our understanding of the world around us; taking more time to answer than before, listening with a higher degree of intensity, and even giving others the same kind of mercy we long for ourselves.
 
Jesus knew it was time.  As the key events unfolded he could sense what was to come.  One writer records the final moments this way;
 
“A jug of sour wine was standing by.  Someone put a sponge soaked with the wine on a javelin and lifted it to his mouth.  After he took the wine, Jesus said, ‘It's done . . . complete.’  Bowing his head, he offered up his spirit.” (John 19.29-30)
 
Today is a new day; for me the dawn is hiding, waiting for the night to give way.  I can sense something unfolding.  Part of it I know, yet there is much that I do not understand, cannot sense, and remain blinded to.  Will I see, anticipating the question of the soul which always comes with the change?  Will I prepare, celebrating the past while looking forward to the future and remaining firmly in the present?  Will I actually turn or try to grasp what I thought was here yesterday? 
 
My prayer rests with you.