“My life is well and whole, secure in the middle of danger even while thousands are lined up against me. God hears it all, and from his judge’s bench puts them in their place.” Psalm 55.18,19
Life is chaos on a good day! Turmoil is waiting to break free, adversaries are waiting in the wings, and I am failure waiting to come out. I see all these things, feel the pending doom, recognize the weaknesses, and still things are ok. God is here, I sense his presence, and he continues to bring peace and confidence.
It is still difficult to completely let go of my enemies. Our battles are deep and long with wounds that do not want to heal. Between us anger and pain drives our moves more than sensibilities and love. I am convinced that I am the reason my own wounds do not heal. I carry the guilt of hurting others having left the need for revenge at the Judge’s bench. I dream for the day when my arms will free to love.
Looking around I see the next battles forming to the north, south, and east. The issues are real, the problem plain, my alternatives limited. Do I have the courage to the God be the general? Am I willing to let things go, unconditionally release my grip and anger? Is the rush from winning a battle or two my drug addiction? Can I admit my self-dependency? Will I trust the judge?
This morning the answer is yes. Today with a fresh, crisp, and clear dawn, all seems well. I see only one enemy, my self, and he is under control. God is here and I am leaving everything in his hands. I know the problems will still be in front of me tomorrow, however, for today, I am leaving the future with God. I know his promises are sure and his presence will remain. Life is well and whole, secure in arms of love and grace.
God is ready for you. All God needs from you is a “yes”.