I tried to describe the last few days to a friend. Struggling with words, I finally just blurted it out. “Monday I lost my hold on God and I found myself devastated. I lost my walk of reflection and I paid dearly for it.” After thinking more about the past week, I believe my hurried answer was more accurate than I could ever imagine. Every time I lose my balance, the attitude of walking in prayer and reflection, I trip, stumble, fall, and in too many other ways hurt the friendships and relationships around me. There can be no doubt; to walk or journey on my own just does not work! I consistently fail. I try to do things on my own. I try to become the very god I hold most dear. I never succeed.
This is actually good news! Each of us tries this approach at one stage or another. We fight for what is rightfully ours. We defend our territory and achievements. We protect those we care about, usually for the wrong reasons. Knowing that one has this inclination and habit can bring one to the moment of decision. The challenging part is that I must make, remake, and then again remake this decision several times a day! I am a slow learner, and God is extremely patient. He warns me that I will come back to this trap often, but offer His unconditional acceptance and mercy in bringing me back to all that I can be.
Is there a lesson in all this? I hope so. The solution is simple. God gives it to each of us if we will listen with our heart and mind. “First pay attention to me, and then relax. Now you can take it easy – you're in good hands.” (Proverbs 1.33)
Today is a fresh start. All around us are people that are hurting and could use a smile and bit of help. I can make a difference, so can you. We can be God's touch and voice in another's life. God's Spirit is with you.